fuck that devil that bothered me in my sleep...

I dunno what just happened to me the other night.. but its fucking annoying and freaky at the same time.. actually this happened the second time around… the first one happened a couple of years ago…

My sleep was disturbed in by some fucking supernatural being or whatever it is.. I know it’s not a dream……….. cause I can hear the music in my computer playing… my eyes were open.. but I couldn’t move….somebody is speaking but I cant see anything…. Its like somebody is on top of me holding both my hands and trying to stop every inch of me… it lasted in less than a minute.. I cant move.. I cant shout.. and the bad thing about it is that I live alone… and no one can help me just in case… sad sad week end…

Whoever that is or whatever it is… all I can say to you.. is fuck you!

Suckers are suckers…

I suck when it comes to budgeting my allowance… freak I spent all my tax refund on nonsense things… and the freaky thing bout it is that I haven’t been able to purchase any clothes or whatsoever.. which means I spent my money with some unnecessary expenses.. well not all.. the only that is a bit necessary is that I paid my cellphone bill and that’s it…. Freaky freak freak… less than a week I wasted all my money on shitty things….and I haven’t done any significant thing either cause.. I only had one class this week….only today… and I’ll be late cause I want to attend that homecoming here in UST…. I’m evn blogging bout this here in the LRU…. lru means learning research unit… I think so… I dunno.. and I don’t care… I wasted your time already…. Ciao

nang malungkot si marlon... uamagang umaga pa....

I woke up…. As early as 5:00 am… I heard the sound of that mortar and pestle bumping into each other…. And everything flashed back.. just like when my folks are still around…. Every morning I hear that sound cause they are already preparing breakfast.. and there’s always fried rice… and that sound of the mortal and pestle… is for the garlic that will be fried for the rice…and suddenly.. it made me feel so alone… back then.. every morning is like a feast.. in this house you will never get hungry… well back then… but now.. it’ll take you hours to have something to much on.. that’s why I dine at the mall or out somewhere.. cause I don’t want to cook just for myself….five years to go.. and I hope they’ll be back… just want to feel like living in a home again…I sucks when you celebrate occasions alone.. Thought that I am already used to be like this.. living alone… it’s been months.. and it’s not that hard at… I’m earning good…. And got my own house…. Back to school…. Well fuck… is this such a senti blog???....fuck… sorry….

And so it happened….

The shitty thing that happened to me this week is that I received my grad in envi chem. And it sucks real bad… I got a failing grade the only good thing is that we can have a retest… this really sucks… I thought the attitude that I had in undergrad is applicable still here in this thing we call graduate school… fuck…never thought that I would receive such grade…I really have to study for this test to get at least 1.25 but I’m not in the mood and I was never in the mood to study…. That the worst thing about me.. and still I have the courage to take up masters here but I don’t have any patience when it comes to studying.. I really hate to study.. hate it.. hate it… hate it… shit… fuck…. And now I’m hooked with this internet game.. and its taking most of my time spent in my house… fuck that DSL…. Hahahahhahahaha.. I know what are you thinking right now… “why am I reading this crap?” maybe because you have nothing to to with your life so you are stucked with this mess that I posted…..