shit

Am fucking leaving for the mountain in a couple of hours and its freaking raining…. I am not excited at all…. Cause I have work loads to leave and if I’ll bring it up there the more I’ll end up screwing this weekend and the fucking thing is that I have to finish up some more results at the office this morning when I get there and fucking long conversations with the clients…… I hate it! I just want to have a break!!!! After this trip I’ll end up cramming again for my final exams and the sad thing is that I have done nothing for this shit!!!! CRAPPY ME! FUCK!!! and lately I’ve been sleeping like a fuck…. sleeping at around 10 pm and waking up at 2 am! WTF! Bitchy bitchy feeling! I am freaking hating YOU! I’ll start reformatting my daily habits and focus maybe so that I’ll be able to nail good grades next semester…….

baliw baliw 

ano na ngayon???

Uy may baliw….

I was riding a jeepney this morning… it was an ordinary day… till I saw this freak walking fast in the stretch of marcos highway heading towards katipunan… a mentally challenged person in short “BALIW” wearing a red helmet and holding a baton on his hand…. The good this is that my digi is inside my bag and I really really have to take a picture of such sight…… the pic turned out a little bit out of focus.. its just a snap shot taken while holding my cam inside my bag.,.. mahirap na baka maholdup ehh……..

News flash….


The lazy bitch got sick! Yeah…. I dunno what made her do it… but she finally decided to wash some test tube in the lab after months of wait me and me friend was so freaked out… that we teased her about it… the whole day!


Another story….

I have to submit my take home test next Tuesday….. that bad thing is that I am clue less about it because the test is about the a lesson that I missed a couple of weeks ago!!!! And I cant start answering it…. the sad thing is that I have to leave for baguio this weekend… so I don’t think I have enough time to answer it as well as I could.. just because I’m lazy!


Latest addiction….

RF online… I’ve been playing this game the whole week… that’s the reason why I always appear to be online in YM but I don’t talk to any body anymore….. great thing!

bakasyon engrande sana!

And summer begins by now….
I just finished taking up my finals for adv org. yesterday… I hope I passed cause I need to pass that test to earn the minimum allowable grade….. I haven’t really been able to study at all cause I fell asleep Friday night…. Well that’s done… after the finals I headed straight home to rest so I can go out at night I’ve been inviting some friends out… but I ended up nailed into my computer talking to my sister and having a tutorial with her… am helping her with her assignment in her culinary classes….we had a long 4 hour talk over the net with the aid of YM…..it’s weird…. Cause only know that we get along that well back when we were kids we use to fight all the time…….. it just means were freaking old already…. Anyways am also thinking about taking up culinary she’s asking me to apply to the same school hopefully I will be accepted for a lil’ scholarship program….

Hope I can enjoy this vacation as much as I can…. Hate having lots of stuff to do…. I just wanna rest all the time… lazy me… and I NEED TO TRIM DOWN ON M DIET but I just have lots of stuff to eat here in my house….

Bahala na!

Mga classmates pakopya ng exam dun sa envi.... tinatamad na akong magisip ehh....


Salamats in advance

W

What if I just fade away…
What if suddenly death visits me…
Would he invite me to join him?
Where will I go?
Will there be a place for me?
Would you be there?
What will I wear?
Who will be there?
Will we know each other?
Will that be the end?
Which is which?

what is it?

Just when everything seems to be alright then there the “it” comes…. And everything changes… like a doing a back-flip landing face down on the floor… then suddenly.. I just want to quit on everything… nothings making my day anymore… everything seems like a complete mess… cant appreciate anything at all….. is this the feeling of being desperate? Or is this something else.. Would I end up suicidal? Or I’ll end up on those four walled rooms and tied up in straight jacket? Crap…

just woke up... after the training.... and i look a freaking whatever it is ur thinkin!!! hahahahah 

me at the chalk 

my powerpoint in resmet! 

at last....

At last… after sleepless nights after those nonsense nights pretending that I’m reading and those nights that I just fell asleep…. Two more exams to go and I’m freaking free from stress hopefully…. I wont enroll anything this summer cause I got to have some decent vacation and just enjoy the heat! but tome i gotta finish lots of homework for my class at 11

...........

Forget
Forget the one
Stop
Try to end everything
No more wasting time
Back to zero
Bye bye beautiful…….
does it make any sense at all???

pagnakita kaya ng mom ko na ganito kagulo bahay ko.. ano kaya sasabihin nun??? baka biglang umuwi un ah.... lilinisin ko to after finals... pramis! 

bakit ba ang lason....nakakalason? 

magpapagupit na ba ako??? tanong lang... 

for a while.....crap....hehehehehehe

I really have tons of school work to do…. but I just cant figure it out.,.. i cant start working on it… I’m thinking about lots of things…. Lately… i’m experiencing headaches... maybe because I cant eat at night…. Every time I arrive in my house I just cant force my self to eat a decent meal.. the only thing that’s been filling up my stomach are some junkies…. Trying to lose weight isn’t that easy…. But I really have to… some of my shirts wont fit anymore…. thank to pizza hut my body started to bloat once again… and the Christmas fats wont get out of my body that fast… summer is just around the corner… summer heat…. Beach bums.. baguio… crap… I can’t figure out a way to spend this season…. Just because I’m working…. Maybe it would be more fu n if ‘m still back in undergrad….. engkanto kingdom trip with friends… and beach outings… even a trip to laguna will please me for the moment…. Hmmm…. And ***** the one…. Anyways,,,.. I cant think of anything more to blog about……got toms of mp3 to DL here…. But the freaking connection is too slow… too many subscribers means slower connection…… mura kasi eh………….

for the rainfall 

somebody did this.. maybe because they're so pissed off.... hehehhe 

and another... 

after the rain... 

chalk peste!!!

This should be a very nice day for me… I have to leave for work to join chalk fest… I know I’m not good in this.. but I just want to join… hehehe…. Exploring my creative side once again…. i always want to be an artist.. but shit happens you know… well this afternoon…when we are about to finish up our drawing.. the freaking rain poured down.. and so everybody’s work were ruined.. ah… crap…

Sa sobrang badtrip ko… napabili ako ng sapatos ng ndi oras…. hahahaha

Just a bit confused…

Lately I am acting a bit different from myself…this isn’t on of those days that I get some bad mood…..maybe this is due to my headache… which occurs every night since Monday….i’m trying to lose some weight… and as a consequence…I end up too hungry during the night… but I’d rather sleep….i just don’t feel like eating at night anymore…. and too many things are flowing into my mind.. and last night I was dreaming that I was hiding away from the government of some very influential people are hunting me…so I became the hunted suddenly… fortunately I woke up around 12… but I end up sleeping around 4 am… I just cant sleep… too many things are bothering me…. And I’m too lazy to finish up my last report which is due next week… hay………..

The freaking machine…

Oh.. holy crap… once again… somebody trashed some freaky message into my answering machine….the girl or who ever that is….maxed out most of the space in my answering machine… and all were freaking gibberish….. I cant understand a single thing….. I dunno if those people leaving a message know me at all… and I just hate people hanging up… maybe because they don’t know how to leave a message or what…. Lame lame lame lame…..

Bloody ear…

Yesterday…. Before attending my gradskul… i decided to comb my hair.. I know… it sounds so lame.. that a person narrating about combing his hair… bur here comes the twist….accidentally the comb caught one of my ear piercing… and at first ignored it.. thinking that it just scratched my ear or something like that… when I my class was already starting.. I touched my ear and I found some dried up blood.. curiously.. I removed all the blood just to keep it clean…. And the blood start flowing out from my piercing… I haven’t worn any earring for the past year…. Cause… too many people have the same piercing as mine… and so the blood went on and on… and I have to go to the rest room to clean it up.. it lasted for almost an hour… and now.. it still hurts…..lame blog again…

Lazier each day….

Each day I get a lil’ bit more lazier and lazier…just because summer is approaching and I just want to stop working and spend my summer bumming around… hang around wasting time.. or go to a beach… tough I already have a trip planned out for Singapore this April… one trip doesn’t seem to be enough… and I just want to relive my younger years… when we all spent our vacation somewhere else…. Since I don’t have a province.. we tend to go out of town whenever we can.. and when our parents are feeling like leaving the city… which happens almost every other week back then…crap… I just have to stick with my work… and earn something….. I cant enroll this summer for my gradskul cause… I just don’t want to.. I want to take some pressure off…..

banilya skai! 

2 baliw sa laboratory!!! 

dropper 

elesi 

bottle in the sky..... heheheheh