alone again

In a month’s time now I will be living alone in this freaking house, should I be happy or not. I am very envious that all of them will be living abroad already and I will be stuck in here. I just want to get the hell out of this place. This country is a piece of junk I think I should grab any opportunity that will give me a chance to go to other places I really want to leave this country cause its full of shit. To tell you the truth the only thing that is holding me back from leaving this place are my friends and family. Now that they will settle to another place for good I can’t wait to join them. To some people I might sound so depressed or should I say desperate. Yeah I am desperate in leaving this place because it’s fucked up and I don’t believe in this country anymore. The only thing I like about this place is the way of living it’s so laid back unlike elsewhere its very fast paced. I really don’t know what to do now. All I am is a sitting duck in here waiting for a petition or something else I really cant imagine myself being stuck in here. Fuck my life is very miserable I can’t comprehend how other people manage to be contented with their life in here if you’re going to try there is a hell lot of opportunities out there all I need is experience fuck. I really want to leave this place and experience another culture another heritage and live in a better place. Some might say that there is no place like home. Hell no home should you consider this home? Lots of oppression and suffering people around you maybe you should rethink your idealism. I am an optimistic person but from what I can see in our government all I can say is that there is no hope! No HOPE!!! I’m not trying to bring down this country unless good people I mean GOOD PEOPLE will lead this country nothing will happen to us. Until then I will not stop aspiring in leaving this place. When do we change? When can we change? Are we willing to change? Is there any chance that these things will change? I don’t know really… let’s just be hopeful until then… until then life will be much better…