whining ass.....

At last been able to have one complete sleep last night and damn it feels fucking good to have a complete rest. I have been longing for this one for a long time, even though we had a very long weekend it sucks cause I have to do favors for other people and have to visit the office one a day to check my samples and I have to go out boozing all night long and I end up going to bed around 4 to 5 am cause when I arrive home I still check my computer just because I am afraid going to sleep with a full stomach without resting for even an hour. I’m gonna miss this type of life since I will try to concentrate on my MS this semester maybe I’ll only go boozin’ during Saturdays cause I still have class earlier that day…. But maybe I can squeeze in some time for boozing at Friday night… last time I just want to get sober but right now I am thinking about alcohol again maybe because I have been able to miss all day yesterday with out drinking any beer or wine. Maybe this can be an opportunity for me to be sober and detoxify myself from alcohol….. this thing became and addiction already…..and I have other things to do right now… and planning to be back in a healthy lifestyle again back to badminton and maybe biking.. just maybe… maybe maybe…. Maybe I should go on a meditation class…..nah… I’ll just do whatever I want…. I like it like this…. But I’ll just try to avoid alcohol a bit… but how? How can I distance myself from it I love going to gigs and I don’t want to end up drinking an iced tea while all other peeps are holding a bottle of light of horse…. Blah blah blah blah….why do I always whine about alcohol… shit….