reckoning

And another one is leaving… most of my cousins are already leaving for abroad for a greener pasteur…. Crap and I’m freaking stuck in this country… I’m pretty underpaid… but who can I blame??? That’s the rate for professionals like us here… since this country is so underdeveloped and very poor… what can you expect why would the government try to put some budget on research so as to development of science…plus I’m kinda tired of my field… I’m still thinking about trying on something new… maybe culinary arts.. the one that my sister is telling me a couple of weeks ago… I dunno I’m just tired of something… and I hate working with people you aren’t so comfortable with…. Lazy world…. Since vacation started I am always thinking about changing my field… should have tried food technology instead of chemistry…. Ohh.. crap…four years have been wasted already plus my board exam… though nailed it… the test wasn’t that hard either but I’m not satisfied with the result… cause I just didn’t focus much and I reviewed for like 2 days only prior to the date of exam…. Silly me… and now am still thinking about that thing that I should have earned a better grade… well good for me I passed it… unlike those unfortunate people who just couldn’t pass it no matter what… maybe I’ll give the credit to my school… for the nice training that I had and it’s a pretty nice college life that I had… nice facilities and the best of all the crowd… though most of my friends were kicked out….. still my life back then is so fuckingly crazy the after school booze and the trips… my fucking mistake of taking up chemistry gave something good in return…..well maybe I’ll just have to make the right decisions from now on to straighten up things a little bit… still got time but am not getting any younger anymore…ahhh.. sometimes I just want to quit on everything and rewind my life….