K!M!K(+) T(+)P@K @T R3KL@M(+): September 2005

a question of FaiTh

Why believe in something that you don’t see?
Why believe those people who tell you what’s wrong and what’s right?
Why believe?

I’ve been thinking why should I read the BOOK if that book was written only by those hypocrites back in ancient times. The most widely spread religion holds its philosophy based on the BOOK but what if these writings are just make believes of those people what if the person who had this book published had everything planned out?; if all my speculations were true I guess this is perfect prank ever made in human history. Come to think of it, if all of these were just made up so to help the expansion of the different countries what if they used this as a tool to spread their culture? Well for me all of it don’t matter at all cause still I will stick to my faith no matter what. J

UST FOODTRIP

UST got lots and lots of foodstore around the vicinity. There are lots and lots of foodchoices from fastfoods like Mc Donalds, Jollibee, Wendy’s, BK, Kenny Rogers, and lots more. But there are more way affordable stores and serves more delicious foods. On the top of my list is “MANG TOOTS” sounds funny but the food that they serve in here is excellent I just love eating here though the place isn’t that very clean at all and sometimes you will end up eating in the street, my friends and me call these “the real dining outdoor experience” most of the time we eat at the table placed on road, you can find this store near the end of P. NOvaL heading towards Dapitan St.; Before this store was located only at Barlin St. before I left USt they already have 2 branches just one street apart, RJB is one of the most common place that we dine in cause in here you can avail the P20 budget meal! We eat here a lot before because we want to save something so that we can play more Counter strike the P20 meal is made up of ½ order Sisig and a 1 ½ rice! Jologs it might sound to you but the sisig in here is defferent it’s crunchy cause it’s fried not grilled; 3rd pic is Cocoy’s Now it has a different name already I forgot the name of the store but it’s easy to find cause it’s located right in front of P. Noval Gate near the gym, they serve great sizzling foods in here I love their pare here and the Sisig. There are lots of other stores that I go to cause you can’t stick me in a single place. In my four year course in UST I think I’ve been trough all the store around the university, from the most cheapest stores to the most expensive resto around. Oh another store that I love going to is BRB they serve real fast food, cause every thing is fried here and they only have around 6 menu in here but all are very good. I dine here around once or twice a month cause its always full. There is also this great store SR Thai Cuisine they got one at Dapitan and another in P. Noval they serve real good food they were even featured in different newsprints back then if you really want to spend on real food this is a place that you can go to especially if you are tired of fastfoods. There is this other resto which is situated at same building as KFC the mane of the resto is “WOK WITH ME” in here all foods are freshly cooked for you. I bet if you are a real food lover you will love studying in UST cause around it caters all types of foods. Every year a new store opens and I bet it just gets better.

the industry

Foreign flicks being shown in our local channel is very annoying, the stories of these stuffs are all the same and the local actors are complaining about the fall of the local industry. It’s a tragedy for all of us instead of making a quality film or good sitcom they’d rather import a ready made Korean, Japanese or Chinese soap that they can profit upon. And some sitcoms being produced now are patterned after those foreign flicks which makes us a mere copycat when it comes to creativity I bet those indie directors are way better than those directors that handles those sitcoms being shown in the air. Some stations resort to having a reality show which makes it easy on their part first there are no scripts all you need is the game plan and then all the contestants will be the ones in-charge of the story line. I remember every time the film festival is approaching you can see all those over rated film claiming having a very nice cinematography, story, blah blah blah and all the shit that comes with it. Can I ask you one thing what can you expect from a movie finished within a couple of months? Or films that has a budget of 5M would satisfy a real movie critique? I don’t think so. And the FILM it sucks, we are still using the same of suffs that would only work for a retro film, the clarity and everything that comes with it really annoys me. Indie move makers can produce a better film cause they focus on “DETAILS” unlike the movies in here, one time I saw this movie I think its about lapu lapu or something no wonder it didn’t won any award it really sucks. Damn the effects the costumes, come to think of it their tattoos looks like a charcoal scratched into their skins and the swords seems like a wooden stick. A national hero holding a wooden sword, I cant imagine how did the director managed to continue the film. And the dialogues are lame then they had joyce Jimenez to portray as the wife she cant even pronounce the word right, man learn to scout for good actors for the right role. That another problem here in our country we focus on the actress or actor on how famous they are and its alright to us even though he/she doesn’t fit in with the character, for most of the Filipino people, it depends on the fame not on the ability of the artist. It’s the mentality that really sucks. No progress to us up to now. No wonder some actors are trying their luck in other countries out there they can be recognized. What a shitty country we are into.

addiction

Last week it was raining like hell and I’m spending my money as fast as the rain falls on the ground. Come to think of it upon receiving my salary I spent most of it for nonsense things and I have to pay all the bills, crap. I’ve been wasting lots and lots of bucks in alcohol mainly most of the time I’d rather have beer instead of water, this is a freaking addiction building up on me. Every time I visit the grocery I spent half for food and half for the drinks. I really don’t know why I drink too much these days. And most of the time I just want to go out even though I got no more money left. And last week I was pretty pissed off. Cause most of the people that I invited to join me watching different gigs stood me up! Fuck no hard feelings but you “all disappoint me!!!” f*ck. Anyways I still enjoyed most of the week got to land some drinking sessions….but no ganja…. Anyone who loves drinking and getting drunk call me!

This past week� I spent my money on fixing up the rat car�i think it looks better now� though the paint job isn�t very nicely done�at night it looks nice� but at broad daylight all the scratches reveals itself� hahahahahahha�. The expense is quite cheap but there are lots and lots of wasted paint materials�. Ah�and all those money that I burned are from my salary�. Holy crap�. But I loved the way it looked� the whole concept was all mine� but it ain�t finished yet� got to earn some more money so that we can turn it into a one mean machine��.an old school shit��just see the pic��.

The Philippines, the Filipinos and ME…

These past few days our country have been pretty chaotic…but I think the Filipinos are already tired of it…the different scandals in the government all those political agendas and the goal of gaining the presidents position… that what every politician wants to be the most powerful person in this third world country….greed is all that there is… no more sympathy for our mother land… the questions is…what do you think of that??? Would you just leave and migrate to have a better living…stay and suffer the rest of your life…every employee is experiencing the so called RAT RACE here in our country….as if we don’t receive any pay cause it slips right through our hands….no more PAYSLIP there are only “PAY” then “SLIP”…..in reality I am experiencing such thing already…it pisses the hell out of me….i just cant stand such status of living…come to think of it…many people don’t dream big… maybe some do but they are just stuck with the dream and no actions…..how come people work for lots and lots of years and in the end cant even have a decent burial…such a pathetic world…..employers don’t pay their workers what they deserve…like me… though my salary is big enough for starters but it ain’t good enough for me…from the school where I came from and all those expenses that I spent on… then I will land such job… but don’t get me wrong this is the best job I ever had….laid back and all the people in here are really nice….but I’m not contented….if I become a stock holder of this company maybe then I will be more fulfilled with my life… but still I really want to go somewhere else….maybe I’ll enter the government and be a corrupt person… maybe into BIR or LTO… where you earn more with all those red tapes than your salary….some people think that way…. Or maybe I’ll manufacture drugs and be a dealer… I want to start a business of my own… I want to be the boss…it’s not my thing to be under to somebody….maybe someday…..or maybe I’ll be a BUM…one of the most educated bum…..or take up masters then doctorate degree…… but I don’t want to end up in an academe…if I will become a professor… I don’t think my students will take me seriously…It’s not me at all…….i’ll stop her… cause I’ve got nothing more to say…..

brain dead

Just this morning…it felt like i'm very very stupid!!!…. Fuck…my co-worker asked for help in his chemistry assignment..fuck.. I have to admit…I forgot some of those stuffs that were in there…it’s so basic yet…I just can’t think about the answers… must have been the alcohol… it’s always been that thing….pisses me off…don’t you know that whenever you get drunk brain cells were being destroyed…one by one….it eats your brain away……slowly your keen mind gets deteriorated….maybe I have to slow down with the drinking part…..it’s my source of income…my brain…it’s all that I have.. though I admit i am not a genius…..but I know how to use my brain… that’s all that matters….oh shit….soon I will be brain dead….oh well….

"beads beads beads"

addicted to alcOHol

I just cant stop myself from drinking…..everyday I drink alcohol….just last night… I finished half a bottle of flavored lambanog…. It became a habit…I just need to drink… last night I went to the mall just to purchase some BESUTO and alcohol…… hahahaha… nice combination…living alone is quite liberating… but after all the drinking sessions you will be left with a whole lotta fucking mess…..then you have to go to work….after I have been able to establish this biz that I’m working on… I will quit my job….. that’s only a “maybe”….i’m not sure… cause I really want to be an entrepreneur….want to be a drug dealer…. Hahahahaha….want to learn something new…above all I want alcohol… maybe I’ll do a distillery…durian wine! Putek!!! Ayus un!.....so that I can earn from something that I really love doing… drinking….

fucked up and broke....... what more can i say... i'm screwed!!!

Damn… I’m freakin BROKE….i got only 300 bucks in my wallet… must have been the alcohol and those gigs that burned out all of my money…holy crap….how can I survive till next week……fuck…..money will come to me… I can feel it… but if it wont… I’m pretty screwed up….. overspending is such a bad idea….i exhausted all my resources for less than a week…… maybe next pay day… I will be thrifty…. I’m not good in budgeting things...alcohol is the main cause of all these….last week I had 5 drinking sessions…… then have to take my clothes to the laundry shop….then have to fix some of my papers….ah… then for my food… I have been having my dinner in the mall every night…..

wicker

Just a while ago I saw wicker park at star movies well the story is just a typical love story with a little bit of twist… the only fascinating thing about the whole movie is how it was told… the sequencing of the events how things got intertwined…. How one thing led to another… it’s something new from all the movies that I have seen…the story might not be very much original… you know… a guy trying to track a lost love one then another girl obsessed with him tries to screw everything up… the old cheesy flicks…the only thing that made me stuck into finishing the film as I have told…. How it was presented in the movie… nice…. I’ll go now…. got to watch another movie..

bastards

This morning I saw this fucking Gloria Macpagal Arroyo in the TV talking shit about the actions being done by the Philippine government to help those victims of the typhoon in the US and she kept on emphasizing about “thankfully there are no Fil-Ams hurt or killed in the tragedy, come to think of it why be concerned only on our so called “kababayans” yet there are other people hurting needing more help why not help all the victims and stop focusing only on one race. Stupid it seems such person in a position like that can think like a selfish bastard! I don’t know how this works but most of the time when we hear reports about tragedies we always emphasize on our own race though it’s not bad we confirm that there are no Filipino casualties but the point is the reporters will always recite such line “BUTI NAMAN WALA TAYONG KABABAYAN NA NASAKTAN” but the point is there are other victims! Why do we care less about other race? We are all humans after all. We only have different skin color and beliefs. Such selfish bastarados!

** by the way GLORIA sucks in the TV she was messing all the conversations, she’s like kris aquino, always want to be on top of all things.

alcohol again

It just struck me… “I WANT TO QUIT DRINGKING!!!”…. when I woke up this morning this phrase came up to my mind….maybe I’m just tired of it….. last night we were drinking like hell….maybe I want to escape from the crowd that I am always with….. I’m not saying that I hate those people that I drink with every night… but sometimes you get the feeling of being burned out by doing the same things with the same people over and over… sometimes the stories kept playing over and over…. I’m just annoyed… especially when this one person start to relate stories that is just very annoying…..fucked up it seems that my life revolves around work-alcohol-sleep it seems like there is nothing more….there is something lacking…something that I really want to do…. though I am doing this other business…it doesn’t complete me….i want something new… something that can make sense in my life.... Nah… I don’t think I can give up drinking… maybe I just want to drink somewhere else….I’m tired o cleaning up the mess every morning……where can I go this week???.......fuck… I need alcohol!!!!

human-there is nothing more to it

Lightning crashes into you… high voltage of energy injected into your human body…. In a split second you’re dead….just like faith….in faith, no material things that could testify your faith except your doings and the belief that there is something that is waiting for you….that’s how strong faith is… you believe in something you haven’t seen experienced nor encountered…. If you are a rational person… and you don’t believe in the great beyond…you can say that these things that happens to you are results of intertwined circumstances brought by the past to conclude your life…something from something…matter to matter….law of conservation of energy…. Cause and effect… no miracles… these are random errors of nature…reality…. Do I believe in the divine entity??? Of course… some of us do… some don’t….i just believe in one thing… one GOD…. Some say his son is black… some says he’s Jewish and all those stuffs…for me…it really don’t matter…… skin color should be as insignificant as the color of a persons eye… all that matters is the person within….what if everyone is united??? How boring would it be? Or how exciting would it be…it’s like living in an automated factory… where there is some place for everybody… no conflicts…..how would it be??? Will it ever happen…posstivity….all that we need…..optimism…..freedom….equality….but with all the differences in ethnicity, religion, race, and idealism…no peace will be achieved… we are all humans there’s nothing we can do about it…..

WuLpGanGnaYt

Mid-week….. it’s an odd time to have such event… but tonight it’s WOFLGANG NIGHT….. original members Mon and Manuel brought the band back to life…. With the help of different artist to cover up the missing pieces of the band…..such a spectacular night I might say….basti and wolf would love to see such performance…..six vocalists were gathered for a two part event…..first set composed of gian villa flor of kinky hooter, mishka Adams, and kevon roy of LOQUY and RAZOR BACK…. Second set was made of jay Ortega of DRT, jet pangan of The DAWN,and karl roy of KAPATID for the finale…. The night was a blast… full of energy…all is good… the crowd… all music lovers gathered.. people who missed wolfgang…. I thought we came early….. sadly.. we found ourselves… sitting at the back…. I can’t even have a clear shot on the performers…. Sayang talaga….. but by just seeing the performance of such icons…. This is an event worth remembering…. All the notable songs of the band were played with a twist which really depends on the artist who will be doing the vocals… I enjoyed the event a lot… everything is worthwhile… miska did very well… come to think of this a jazz artist singing for a hardcore band… it sick….. anyways.. just enjoy the pictures……… Malabo nga lang…….