i like it i hate it....

it's been months since i last had a nightout and i cant do it here in cali cause i dont have friends to hang out with... and still am adjusting to these peeps... but the idea of living again with my family is still a lil' bit hard... i just cant do anything... seems like there is a limit again... i miss the life that i left in the third world... the laid back tyep of life is the one that i miss and the nice beaches and those malls... but i gotta stick with this for a while... and then i'll have one hell of a fucking drinking spree in phil...